“Disintegration…I’m taking it in stride.”Tumblr (3.0; @sparebones)http://sparebones.tumblr.com/<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m1acqz7cN11r068rao1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://forgiveme-empty.tumblr.com/post/19730706652/hello-my-future-body" target="_blank">forgiveme-empty</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>hello, my future body :)</p> </blockquote>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747991844http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747991844Thu, 22 Mar 2012 14:35:37 -0700<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m1act6LUBP1r068rao1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747989705http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747989705Thu, 22 Mar 2012 14:35:35 -0700<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m1asfekNS51qlrgoxo1_400.png"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747987660http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747987660Thu, 22 Mar 2012 14:35:33 -0700<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lz1j3ljLur1qbfia9o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://red-lips-little-hips.tumblr.com/post/19742909022/loooove-3" target="_blank">red-lips-little-hips</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>loooove <3</p> </blockquote>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747985632http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747985632Thu, 22 Mar 2012 14:35:31 -0700<p><em>Day one of our 8 day juice fast. Already feeling miserable as the juice recipe we used was disgusting. However, have had nothing but that since I woke up, plus 3 cigarettes. </em></p> <p><em>For the first 3 days of your fast your body is living off whats left in your intestines. For the next two, off the enzymes in your liver. So we are *really only fasting for 3. </em></p> <p><em>Still. If I can find the strength to workout, I can lose so much in the next 8 days&#8230;</em></p>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747807393http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/19747807393Thu, 22 Mar 2012 14:32:20 -0700<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0lpsapgsV1roaxflo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18990050071http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18990050071Thu, 08 Mar 2012 21:10:54 -0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0f5t1ijOS1qdrwdeo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18982085992http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18982085992Thu, 08 Mar 2012 18:36:05 -0800http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18982074411http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18982074411Thu, 08 Mar 2012 18:35:53 -0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzh055Riw51ro7wj4o1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18981664645http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18981664645Thu, 08 Mar 2012 18:29:14 -0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0lcyotzcJ1qhj9tgo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980825567http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980825567Thu, 08 Mar 2012 18:15:53 -0800<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0f6vjO5WL1rqliwzo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980823262http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980823262Thu, 08 Mar 2012 18:15:51 -0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0kynf9gnb1rprszwo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980820880http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980820880Thu, 08 Mar 2012 18:15:49 -0800<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0dtabFUnP1rprpi2o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980818958http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980818958Thu, 08 Mar 2012 18:15:47 -0800http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980816364http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980816364Thu, 08 Mar 2012 18:15:44 -0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0drmhcJR21ro803go1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980813088http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18980813088Thu, 08 Mar 2012 18:15:41 -0800<p><img height="333" src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lwz43hvvJe1r98lqmo1_500.jpg" width="500"/></p> <p><em>It occurred to me last night, that things aren’t going to be changing any time soon. 4 years going on 5, filling empty space and waiting for something to happen. Meanwhile things about my hips aren’t getting any better and this desperation is… encompassing.  </em></p> <p><em>You see I spend every day trying to avoid it. Wake up, put on the coffee, smoke some spliff, shower(if you can avoid looking in the mirror), smoke a cigarette, watch some TV, walk around the flat, admire the cats, drink more coffee, smoke another cigarette, more spliff.</em></p> <p><em>Until I start to feel sick. Dizzy and sad and so tired. All I need is an hour, a snack, a lie down. Don’t think about your life. Don’t think about the food, the snack that just became a meal you wouldn’t eat in public.</em></p> <p><em>Dont think about the choices, the chances and the lives you could have lived. Dont think about Berkley, the Family, the commitment I can never reconsider… Dont think about the fact that its all gone and that while less of me is surely here, more of me seems to fill the space. </em></p> <p><em>___________________________</em></p> <p><em>We threw out the scale when we moved into this flat and I dont even know how bad its gotten.</em></p> <p><em>I know somethings got to give though. I know the overwhelming fear of a certain early death and no clue whats waiting on the other side. Surely more suffering, if what I am told is to be believed. Isnt it better to choose what youre going to suffer for? Isnt it better for the pain to be worth it?</em></p> <p><em>Maybe I still have a chance. Today I’ll find a scale…</em></p>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953612718http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953612718Thu, 08 Mar 2012 09:40:58 -0800<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0j1zcdbEn1qifce8o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://antonostlundphoto.tumblr.com/post/18908309855" target="_blank">antonostlundphoto</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Hanna E @ MIKAs</p> </blockquote>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953478049http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953478049Thu, 08 Mar 2012 09:37:06 -0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m050ozulet1qm6kcho1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://mustlooklikethis.tumblr.com/post/18759554562/sexy-skinny-girl-htfb-gallery-on-we-heart-it" target="_blank">mustlooklikethis</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Sexy Skinny Girl | HTFB gallery on We Heart It. <a href="http://weheartit.com/entry/24004173" target="_blank"><a href="http://weheartit.com/entry/24004173" target="_blank">http://weheartit.com/entry/24004173</a></a></p> </blockquote>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953475680http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953475680Thu, 08 Mar 2012 09:37:01 -0800<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m01p2f4dx61rp13i5o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://neverwantedanythingthisbad.tumblr.com/post/18373882092/thigh-gap-awaits" target="_blank">neverwantedanythingthisbad</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Thigh gap awaits! </p> </blockquote>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953473924http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953473924Thu, 08 Mar 2012 09:36:58 -0800<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m00gdly3hj1rnmos0o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953472456http://sparebones.tumblr.com/post/18953472456Thu, 08 Mar 2012 09:36:55 -0800